Thursday, 13 August 2015

Result upu.

Alhamdulillah. Result upu dh keluar on 11 August 2015. And i got dietetik kat uitm. And its palam (same place macam asasi).

Hati dh bertaruh. Nak masuk ipta or ipts? Dua dua ok je. After fikir masak masak and finally i choose Chemical Engineering as my next destination because of few reasons:

1) sejak form 4. Sejak kenal biology memang aku tak suka biology. I dont know why. Tapi aku terpaksa suka sebab nak exam kan, and alhamdulillah i got A- for Biology in SPM.
2) I should fulfill my ambition after doctor. Its impossible for a person like me, who doesnt like biology nak jadi doctor kan. Masa lepas spm ada apply asasi chemical engineering kat UTP and after iv dapat civil. So i decided untuk masuk asasi sebab tak minat.
3) Harapan parents. Parents tahu i dont like Biology. And diaorang nak sangat tengok anak dia yang bongsu ni jadi Engineer. I think, i need to obey them sebab restu tu penting and dengan restu tu lah kita akan berjaya, inshaAllah. :)

Pray me the best of luck ♥♥♥

Chemical engineer to be here! Hehe inshaAllah, amin. May Allah bless.

Saturday, 8 August 2015

Letter in a bottle

You may have your good friends, your old friends, your new friends, your class friends, your going out friends, your “real” friends, and your frenemies, but do you have old friends (during school)? And, are your old friends your saddest lost relationship? It is for me. At least with break-ups, there’s a definitive end-point: "we should see other people...it’s not you it’s me...I hate you…” what have you, but with friends becoming ex-friends or worse ex-best friends, it’s just a slow fade, a growing apart or a never resolved fight. At  least that’s how it was for me. So, here’s my letter to you, my ex-best friend.

To you,

I must admit I’ve been through my fair share of friends and ex-friends. This is both sad and not sad. I’ve learned a lot about friendships this way but I’ve also learned not to hold on to tight or care toomuch and that’s how I lost you. I don’t like to seem clingy. I don’t like to text first. I don’t like rejection in any form and I always feel annoying. So, when you stopped putting in effort, I let it happen. I figured you were done with our friendship and our time was up. I thought a lot about calling you or texting you, just to reach out somehow, but never did. You were nearly my sister for years and someone I could rely on no matter what and I hope you knew you could always rely on me.

Together we were unstoppable. You were one of the few people I put my full faith in and one of the most wonderful people I have ever and will ever know. We stood by each other through our toughest times in high school and came out stronger because of our loyalty to each other. You are also one of my biggest role models. You are vastly independent and never afraid to speak your mind. And, you definitely brought these qualities out in me, at a time when I desperately needed it. You have the biggest heart and work your hardest to achieve your goals and I have always admired that in you. You had a bigger influence on me than you know and I think now more than ever you’d be proud of who I became and who I am becoming, because of you.

During our friendship, there was a lot of turmoil for me socially and emotionally. High school is tough for everyone, I think, but you were always there. Basically living together, spending our after school activities together. Being friends with you was an adventure everyday I never got bored with you, I never left feeling empty or unwanted in your presenceand I hope you felt the same way about me. I knew whenever we were going to hang out that it was going to be a good day. It was going to be eventful. I was going to be happy. We made the best of every situation, and even on our worst days as individuals being together always seemed to make things better.

There is so much I took away from our friendship that I am thankful for every day, such as the loyalty of a true friendship, what it’s like to feel like family with someone who is not legally your family, how to stand up for myself, and how to forgive others who have hurt me. I regret not keeping in touch. I regret not trying harder. I regret not visiting, I regret not making every effort to see you when I could in those later years. I think of our friendship and see how much I’ve grown up and you’ve grown up and I wonder if we’d still be best friends now. And, I wish I didn’t have to wonder and I wish I just knew.

I am calling you my ex-best-friend now, and that doesn’t sit right in my stomach. But how should I describe you? You’re more than somebody that I used to know, but I feel the need to categorize you into this category that many people have fallen into throughout my life, the “ex-friend” category. I hate putting you there but I’m not sure what else to call you. We were best friends and now we don’t speak, and there is nothing I feel worse about.

Good luck in your future, Sally ♡♡♡

Most of all, I’m sorry, you deserved better, and I miss you like crazy. “I know I said we could never be friends like before, but maybe we can be better.”

Last but not least, if  you're reading this (it's impossible), I'm sorry if you think you aren't my friend anymore or you feel abandoned or forgotten. I want you  to know, no matter how busy I am, I still think of you.


Friday, 7 August 2015

Dreaming, after all, is a form of planning


Few days more the upu's result will be announce. I'm very nervous. What course will I get for my degree? And yezz I'm very interested with engineering since form 4. I don't like biology because I don't like reading (not a book worm) -_- and yeah I know but I have continued my studies as a science student even I  got an offer from utp to continue my studies there as an engineering student. But lastly, Foundation in Science is my only choice at that time :P (idk why, maybe because many people asked me to be a doctor which is my ambition since childhood but the prob is idlikebio lolssss xD)

And alhamdulillah, on July I got an offer from a private university. Chemical engineering. **What a big smile** alhamdulillah, I have accepted the offer after I asked some information about the course from seniors and Mr.Google. I have found out it  is a good course because I can easily get the job inside and outside of the country one day with a great salary. My parents also asked me to continue my studies there after they found out some benefits about that course.

However, I'm still waiting for my upu's result. If I get a suitable course for mine, I will continue my studies at ipta and if not, ipts is my only choice. Pray me the best of luck in future and in life :)) May Allah ease.

♡♡♡بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم.