Alhamdulillah, all prise belong to Allah. It's 20th of Ramadan already. so from now we (as Muslim) still have few days more to fast on this blessed month. I hope I can do a good and better ibadat than yesterday and can meet with Lailatul Qadar, inshaAllah. The most impotant thing is, I hope that Allah Swt will accept my Ibadat during this month and before.
OK here we go. About me. I'm very disappointed when my parents not allow me to continue my studies at overseas university especially Mesir or Turkey (the places that I dreamt of since childhood). At first I feel like crying for the rest of my life because I can't achieve one of my ambition in life where is I will continue my studies oversea as I really love travels. But finally after I think about it for many times, I already can accept it and start to write this post: D yeah. Allah knows better than me right?
I know my parents love me as I'm the youngest daughter in this family and my parents only have 2 daughters and no son. That's become one of the reasons why they don't allow me to continue my studies there. My mum has told me that I have to get married first before I fly so that I can bring my husband there and he will take a good care of me (how protective my mum). And she also told me that I can continue my studies oversea during Master one day. InshaAllah mum, I'll :)
So. Don't linger on that feeling too long.
I'm 19. And I think I'm really young as I still can't take a good care of myself, can't independent sometime, I can't handle stress well, and can't live alone. I need someone to talk and tell about my life, my problems and my everyday. In conclusion, i really need a partner. Partner? It doesn't mean that I need a boyfriend. Oh gosh. I don't need at all actually. My family above all.
And yeah. About married that my mum had told me. Let's laughing. HAHAHAAHA it's not funny tho but I still wanna to laugh. Why? Because I already meet many different type of men or boys maybe but most of them like urgh af ! Kakakaka. I hope that I can find someone that is 'soleh' maybe inshaAllah. I don't need the perfect one because I'm not perfect also and I hope we can complete each other weakness. :') astaghfirullahalazim. I know I'm dreaming too high. Haha OK stop.
About my future, what course will I continue my studies, let's Allah decides it and I'm here won't stop praying that I will get the best future for my life, my parents, my family,my future husb, children and all people around me. InshaAllah. Pray for me guys.